self realization

this month was unexpectedly very eventful and significant for me, and at least i feel i have grown much in this one month, especially the last two weekends.

notable was the sweden trip followed by the aiesec conference the following weekend. this two trips and event around them have deeply changed my perspective towards myself. one thing for sure, i realised how foolishly i was taking pride in being in control of myself and being a motivated and self conscious youth. a wise man once said, 'he who realized his lack of knowing, has taken the first step towards knowledge*'. my humble prayers to the Almighty to open my hearts to knowledge and to enable me to focus on the final destiny and not the journey towards it.

however, i have done very little for my project and probably my team mates are getting ready to kick my ass. i feel so guilty and at the same time, sort of lost for not being able to get back on track. damn... (mission MAY)

* text is mine (cant recall the exact text)



by pink floyd

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way

Tired of lying in the sunshine
Staying home to watch the rain
And you are young and life is long
And there is time to kill today
And then one day you find
Ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run
You missed the starting gun

And you run, and you run to catch up with the sun, but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way, but you're older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death

Every year is getting shorter
Never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to nought
Or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desparation is the English way
The time is gone
The song is over
Thought I'd something more to say

Home, home again
I like to be here when I can
When I come home cold and tired
It's good to warm my bones beside the fire
Far away across the field
The tolling of the iron bell
Calls the faithful to their knees
To hear the softly spoken magic spells

p.s. thank you taNm...


last weekend was easter, and that meant holidays once again.
I followed Ailin vabi, Imad vai and lille Akif to a weeklong trip of Sweden.
The Swedish capital, Stockholm was the destination, but we managed a 2 day stopover at Gotheborg, meeting old friends and looking around.
It was absolutely fabuslous trip... one of the best i have had; the trip itself and also the realizations i have had from it.
a week well spent...

piks and stories will be uploaded soon (you guys know what my soon means, so...)


i thought i was smart

its very common for me to not remember any of my siblings' (and good friends too) birthdays, though i do know the dates. well, i thought i did, until...

both my younger sis and bro has their birthdays in april. this year around, i wanted to be a responsible big bro by surprising them with greeting cards. (cant even recall when was the last time i wished them on their birthdays!!!) i figured out it was the sis first followed by the bro later in the month, and accordingly, i send her a greeting with 'lots of best wishes'.

few days back, when the package finally reached home, i was turned into a big laughing stock.... well, it was the other way round... i wished her on my lille bro's birthday!!!

my brother studies somewhere else, so at least i had the chance to send him a birthday wish thru sms. (thanks to us engineers.... lst minute get away)